For those of you who read my blog for upliftment and inspiration, today may not be the day. It’s a rough day for me, as are Christmas morning and February 6th (Hayden’s birthday) as this is the day I had to let my baby boy go.
This grief thing is a learning curve. I believe I do incredibly well and have managed to put together some pretty shattered pieces of my soul in the last four years, but the anniversary brings you back to that dark place and having to say goodbye …
Hayden is the best thing that ever happened to me. I learned a lot from him, I treasured our time together. I never looked at him without smiling, from the inside, as deep as I could. For 14 beautiful years he did that to me.
His life was too short, that is true, but I continue to be amazed at how many lives he touched – and continues to touch. I hope I can say I’ve had that kind of influence when my time comes. You’re still my hero and my heart Hayden and I miss you …Love, Mom
November 28th, 2009 at 9:51 AM
Beautiful tribute, Nancy. You are often in my thoughts as the holidays come upon us. Your honesty in writing about Hayden is transformational, and a wonderful way of honoring him.