One of the things I enjoy about being on the road, i.e. being in L.A. is I have a chance to think. My life is clearly in a transition, a good one. I did a lengthy on-camera interview where I was asked things no one in my life has ever has asked me. On point: “It’s clear why you started to play poker, (theraputic after loss of Hayden) but why did you stay with it?” No one has ever asked me that and it’s insightful as hell. The answer is because poker teaches me more about me than anything else I’ve ever done in my life. For me to do what it is I want to do, and to do it well, and at the best and at the top levels of the world, I have to get to my very core. And I haven’t seen my core in a long long time. This poker gig is making me a better person as the more I get to know about myself the more I like, and that is good. Good all the way around.
One thing I learned a long, long time ago about myself … no knowledge is ever wasted on me. Might have a wait a while to implement it or incorporate it into my gig .. but it isn’t lost. It’s in there and gets used in ways no one, including me, can even imagine. Interesting stuff.
March 3rd, 2010 at 9:15 PM
Very introspective and well written. I always like to read your blog, Nancy.